Humanity [open]

[Tanah]

Emo sounding "block" post.

God created the world perfectly. He even blessed this day with a cool breeze from the east sea and a clear sky extending to the west. He loves his human creations the best, however sinful they are. This thought makes me wonder. However, I can not keep myself from loving the humans because of their...well...humanity. Their imperfection makes me want to care for them.

But with this apparent difficulty, I can not do so. For I am no longer an angel. I am only human blessed with power people whisper as Alice. Does that mean I have to be taken care of, too? Complexities.

I can no longer stretch my wings. Even though they're stretched, I can not fly. The sadness...it this humanity?

"Truly, it is amazing what humility whispers when the heavens cast me down as a sheep." I trailed my fingers along my blonde locks in thought. It saddens me...I need to go back to heaven.

With little thought I took steps back and breathed the evening air. Humanity cast so much fear in my heart. I never thought of being pained before. It is different now.

My red eyes looked forward, beyond the rails of the roof top. I believe in myself. Maybe this fear is what I need to fly. An experimental thought that may cause my life.

My dress--a clothing I am not used to have--fluttered gently as I stood breathing. Doubt. Doubt, is it still part of it? Of this humanity?

Finally, I break into a run and when I reached feet from the rails, I jumped, hoping to skip the metals and fly to the skies. However, embarrassing as it may sound, I jumped too early and hit my torso against the railings. I fell back with a sadder expression.

It is so hard to be human.

[= Mune++e]

You don't mind... :3 and a tiny bit blocked too :T

Nothing could get anymore weirder. Ever since that day, things start to be back to their original routine. She's fine now, physically and now back to her original drill: Waking up - Bath - Dress to her usual uniform - Breakfast [sometimes she intend to skip it] - Go to class - Lunch - Back to class - Back to the dorms - Some homework - Dinner - Rest. No weird stuff had happened this week. As in nothing. But it would change if she would do something differently. . .

On her bed, she is lying. Unusual for her to stare at the empty ceiling. Staring. . .it would probably. . .no, most likely she was deep in thought. Though she undressed her black uniform coat, she was still in her white long-sleeved polo shirt, her red checkered skirt and black long socks. Among all the past days, she thought of it NOW. The reason is, it's been bothersome. If only she could get things straight. There were some things she couldn't completely understand. And of course, some things that he hides from her. If only he could trust her. . .

Not realizing the time, it was near midnight. The moonlight shone but not to its fullest. Still on her lying position, she couldn't sleep. She haven't eaten dinner, actually. At the time she went back to her room, she undressed the coat then lied down immediately. She rested her eyes and sighed heavily. Then soon after she opened her eyes and couldn't sleep. Now an uncanny thing just happened. Maybe going to the rooftop was the right thing to do, well that's what she thought. I hope fresh air would soothe me. . .

Fresh air could let her breathe freely and also exhale away those imaginations. Going up, she made sure her steps wouldn't be loud for light-sleepers to be awoken of. Now that's she near the door, she reached for the knob and twisted it slowly and pulled it gently. It was windy outside. She should have brought her coat.
Then as she examined the area, there was someone exisiting outside. . .

Her hair was incredibly long, and pale blonde but it looked white when the moonlight beamed onto her head. But the young girl's face cannot be sought because she is facing the same direction as Munette does. The unfamiliar girl just stood there. And our girl was still inside the building, analyzing the young girl's actions. She might be thinking something... deeper, maybe. So just slowly, she took a few steps outside then slowly pulled the door for it to be closed. As she closes it, the girl moved forward and fast. Moving towards to the rails. . .

"H-Hey!"

She blurted out nervously and chases her. Now what would happen if she jumped off? She could be accused for such unknowing matter. But luckily, it discontinued. The act of suicide?, she thought of. She sighed in relief then walked to her side. She bent slightly then reached out her hand, expecting the girl would grab it. This was just an act of trying to help the poor lass who just hit her torso. Still the lass's hair blocked her face, she couldn't be sure if she felt disappointed or at ease. Then with her concerned words coming out from her parted lips:

"Have you lost your mind?"