Ieru Koto Nai Kizu (Kira)

[Saya]

She felt as if there was nothing more left for her. There was only the daybreak she didn't think she'd even be able to witness. There was nothing left to win, nothing left to lose.

It was 5 in the morning. At that time, everybody would probably be fast asleep, cuddling their pillows and feeling warm under their comfortable blankets. Saya could be in that state as well, except for the fact that she was at the rooftop of the dormitory, standing behind the rails that are supposed to keep people from falling face first on the ground. Why were those rails so small anyway? Just because students are inside an institution where the people have superhuman abilities doesn't mean they are safe from thoughts like... well, suicide. She could easily jump after the steel banister and get everything over with.

But she couldn't do it. Instead, she chose to cry, to cry as she humiliatingly shrunk down to the ground, holding on to the steel rails that can barely support her. And to her, the cold concrete tiles simply absorb the salty teardrops that fall from her hazel eyes.

She didn't want to take part in any more things; everything that has happened to her was all her weakened heart could take. And even if all of her physical wounds from that incident have been healed, still were wounds that never cease to bleed. Wounds that never start to heal.

The skies retained its blue-violet hue. There was nothing left to lose. Saya pushed her palms against the ground, ready to jump from the topmost floor of the dormitory. She was weak inside, but with her alice, she could easily handle her weight and somehow 'throw herself' to the ground. She was already propped up to end everything there and then, but then a cold wind suddenly blew, and the door that leads to the rooftop slightly opened.

[Kira-chan]

Black eyes that were once covered by thin eyelids are now wide open once again. Clenching her covers tighter in her grip. It's the twenty-sixth time that her eyes wouldn't shut close and let her sleep for the night. It's a sign. That's what she thinks anyway. Trying not to think too much that something bad would happen. Akira Kobayashi, called 'Kira' for short, laughed sarcastically, flipping her covers and sitting up on her bed.

Slipping her slippers on, covering her pijamas over with a fluffy night coat, worn like a yukata. She opened her dorm room's door, and walked to the vending machine with a coin purse, only to buy cold water which she can get for free. Yet why buy it? Well, throwing away small coins are also known as throwing away bad luck. Gripping on the plastic cup filled with cold water, she sat on the bench, next to the vending machine, close to the rubbish bin where the plastic cups are thrown away.

Only staring at the water filled cup, as it vibrates as her breathing waves resonates through the clear liquid. Tilting her head to the side, clenching the coin pouch on the right hand, and holding the cup on the left. She gulped.

The plastic cup slipped from her left hand, causing the water to spill all over the floor, near the bench and vending machine. Her heart skipped a beat.

"Something's really wrong.."

She stood up, and ran accross the girl's dormitory hall, passing the pink robot which comes to check on students. It called out to her, but she didn't respond. Her instincts told her that there is something going on, and as the school's doctor's helper, she must go and find out.

Intuition told her that it's in rooftop. Either that, or downstairs. Since the rooftop was closer, Kira ran there first. Climbing the stairs, not to mention, also breaking the silence of the dorms. She opened the only door to the rooftop, the wind blew, and she could say it was pretty cold.

Looks like she was correct. A girl, tried to jump down.. and well.. jisa--suicide.. and well, die. If it was someone she doesn't know then it would have been a lighter weight for her.

"Saya..-chan? Saya-chan, right?"

[Saya]

Her sore eyes looked up to where that voice--that familiar voice--came from. It was her. The first person whom Saya met within the academy. It's a pity, she didn't even know the other girl's name.

But why would it matter? As far as Saya is concerned, she won't be needing this girl's name when she crosses to the other side. It doesn't matter. Nothing matters anymore.

Saya lowered her head and let her tears continue to fall down.

"Ko..konaide," she said in a low, trembling voice. Just don't...

[Kira-chan]

"Konai?"

She said in surprise. Was she really going to jump? And not only that, it's someone Kira knows too.

"Nani o ittenda!"

Marching straight to the girl, grabbing her by the hand and away from the edge of the roof. Sure is scary to be up high. The wind blew strong, and Kira only had her light pijamas of a shirt, shorts and a night coat, with feet covered with slippers. Goosebumps started to appear on the surface of her legs.

"I know that I have nothing to do with it." She started "all I can ever do is heal physical wounds, while my life gets shortened. I can't heal, emotional wounds.. All lives are precious.."

[Saya]

Saya wasn't exactly in a state where anybody can reason with her. Her mind has already been clouded with thoughts that she doesn't deserve to exist anymore. But there was something in this girl's voice that made her stop crying and pay attention.

A cold breeze blew. The next thing she knew, the other girl already had her by the hand.

"I know that I have nothing to do with it. All I can ever do is heal physical wounds, while my life gets shortened. I can't heal, emotional wounds.. All lives are precious.." she said.

Her life gets shortened? That statement made the suicidal girl think for a while. There she was, trying to end her life while somebody out there struggles with something like this. This was enough for her to make Saya rethink her actions.

She looked up to the girl, opened her mouth, but no voice came out.

[Kira-chan]

Digging in her coat's pockets, she searched for the packet of tissues she always had. It's a good thing to have them around with you around, that's why she always has a packet anyway. Finally finding the un-opened packet, she placed them in Saya's palm.

"Come on.."

The half-chinese girl looked at her previous patient once again. After a moment of silence, she let out a chuckle.

"You must really enjoy crying.. Ever since I first met you, your eyes are always so puffy."

Tears then started rolling down from her own eyes. She was still giggling though, sobbing at the same time.

"But seeing people suicide is just too sad, ne?"

[Saya]

Saya tightly clung on the other girl's hand as she intently looked at the piece of tissue placed on her now open palm. A tissue napkin.

Ironically, this is the first time she's ever going to use those things ever since she got out of the infirmary. To delay (or possibly stop) her suicide for a piece of tissue napkin is downright absurd, but it kept Saya's insides to be splattered all over the entrance of the dormitories.

She closed her fists and brought the tissue to her eyes, wiping her tears away when suddenly, the other girl cried too.

She... she's crying...

Needless to say, Saya was very shocked. Was... was this girl crying because of her? Because of people like her who can't appreciate their lives as it is? Because of people like her who can't understand the pain and suffering of those whose days are already numbered?

There was a sharp pain in Saya's chest. It was the pain of guilt. "I'm... I'm... sorry..."

That was all she could say.

[Kira-chan]

"Mou"

Kira looked up and laughed. Wiping her tears away with the sleeves of her night coat.

"Hontou ni! Why am I crying?"

Her red face was replaced with a laugh. It was stupid of her to cry, but she does that a lot lately. Crying for someone. Try doing something someone would appreciate before her own life ends. Healing someone is switching her lifespand for someone injured. But it didn't matter to her. Others probably have better things to do than her.

Tugging on the other girl's sleeves, wanting to get inside the building instead of staying in the rooftop.

"Ikou?"

[Saya]

Saya couldn't let that matter go. She should be more considerate of others, and this girl would serve as a reminder for her, that she should live for those whose days are numbered.

That she should live for this one particular girl, who saved her from a dreadful death. This girl who wasn't embarrassed to cry in front of her.

And then she remembered her parents, her sister, and her friends back in Okinawa. Her parents would've wanted her to live on, and her friends will be utterly sad if she died. Her twin sister is simply missing--for all Saya knows she might be safe and sound. If she were to die, Asako would be alone in the world, suffering more than how she suffers at this very moment. What kind of older sister is she, had she committed suicide? She could only thank the other girl.

"Th-thank you... a-anou..."

And she remembered once more, she still didn't know her name.

[Kira-chan]

OOC: Doramachiku~

Feeling at ease now that the Kira herself had stopped her former patient from suiciding. Her heart wasn't as weird as it was before, and her body was relaxed. The former patient thanked her, though feeling like she had done nothing, Kira shook her head.

"Kinishinaide"

Taking the tissues she had given to the girl and unfolding them, she wiped the tears of her friend. Smiling as she folded the tissue back, giving it back to whom she gave it to.

"Listen, 'kay?"

She started, giving a nice wide smile on her face. Taking a deep breath, and letting it out once again.

"I believe in you~, kotae wo mitsukeru tame ni, toki wo koe anata to~."

[Saya]

In a nearly inaudible voice, Saya asked what the girl's name was but it seemed that the latter didn't hear her and instead, told Saya to listen to her. She simply nodded and listened silently.

An angelic voice reverberated in Saya's ears as the girl opened her mouth to sing. The two of them were still on the ground, sitting against the cold concrete floor but they looked very much comfortable and at ease. It was true for Saya--her companion's singing was enough to keep her calm.

Saya let her hazel eyes wander towards the horizon as she kept listening to the other girl.