Hysteria Behind The Red Curtains [Open]

[Haleigh Fox]

I went astray.
I roamed around the campus.
I seemed to be like a lost sheep.
I didn't know where to go.
I don't have friends to be with.
I was lonely, as usual.
I am not ready to make friends, however.
I regard my self as someone lowly and useless--that's the reason.
I wanted some time alone.
I sought for a noiseless place.
I searched a spot where no one could see me at my worst.
I wished I could just sleep all of these.
I wasn't sleepy though.
I can't do anything but kill some time in another place.
I am tired of being within the corners of my room--that's why.
I found the auditorium eventually.
I entered the dark backstage.
I felt a strange presence.
I absorbed the various emotions left within the hall.
I almost gripped my heart to death.
I became claustrophobic for a moment.
I felt like I was being contained and crushed in a small box.
I felt the slight bliss.
I felt the heavy misery.
I felt the flow of tears.
I felt the surging anger.
I felt dumb and dumber.
I felt different.

"What is happening to me?"

A voice whispered.
I stared at the dead space.

...

[Luna Katanashi]

"What is happening to me?"

Luna emerged her voice in the shadows as she was right there in the backstage, hugging herself as tight as ever, squeezing her eyes as tightly as she could just like the hug. Why did she even exist in this world? Why is she so upset that it already passed by? Why did she kept on remembering about those moments? None of the people would ever answer that. A "Because.... um.." will only suffice from a person's mouth. Useless and blunt people doesn't even care to answer that.

Feeling uneasy, she decided to just take a rest. That way, it might bring space to her mind, at least in a while. Despite all that, she thought she heard a voice earlier. Was it her imagination? Being so depressed is worse than she thought. As she kept on thinking about it, a fell shadow appeared when she took a third step to the darker area, it was not something incredible, quite ordinary for her. Wait, wait, a shadow of a girl!

Finally, she saw the whole figure of the girl. As she knelt down, she placed a hand on the shoulder of the stranger. On the look on her face, something must be bothering her.

"Everything alright?"

[Haleigh Fox]

I startled in fear.
I felt a hand on my shoulder.
I thought it was 'it'.
I was wrong.
I looked around--behind me.
I saw another person.
I heard her talking.
I was wearing a scared face.
I was asked if I was alright.
I could have replied.
I was too afraid though.
I faced down the floor to hide my face.
I am ashamed of myself all the time.
I spoke a soft word of sorry.
I turned my face back.
I don't know why.
I just don't feel like I wanted to meet new people.
I can still feel the weight of emotions around.
I wasn't scared of it.
I was rather scared with the startling girl.
I suddenly fell on my knees.

Thud! on the wooden floor.

[Luna Katanashi]

Evidences had shown that this girl is scared. Scared of what exactly? By the time her eyebrows cooperated in squirming upward to add the sadness of the "mask" she was wearing, the warm, orange hue of the sun docked in the horizon combined with the bluish color of the sky. Maybe asking about what is happening might be efficient enough. Not until she will say something further.

"You can trust me in helping you despite of me being a stranger, everything is fine."

She sweetly said, her voice piercing in the silence. She found herself going closer to the girl again. Right now, she needs to familiarize herself to her. Is it fatal to everyone if she will do it? So, she gulped audibly and bowed her head down shyly. Maybe this girl... might interact with Luna right now.

"My name is Shanine Katanashi. You are?"

[Haleigh Fox]

The girl drew closer and closer. I had ambivalent feelings towards being approachable to people. I couldn't decide if I really wanted to speak to her. I don't know. Probably, I am simply afraid that she would know me and eventually, everything about me. She would know how shameful I am, how shameful my past was and how shameful my fate is. These things, I wouldn't want everyone to know. I choose to keep them in myself.

For that matter, I turned my face away in shame as I was knelt on the floor. I really am not ready to be of friends with anyone yet. I still lack the enough self-esteem to think that I am worthy of being talked with. The best I could for the moment is to keep her away from this eerie place. She wouldn't like it if she sees what I just saw a while ago.

With faint strength, I babbled, still with my face turned away from the girl.

"Stay away from here. You wouldn't like the overall treatment."

[Luna Katanashi]

"I refuse to do such a thing."

She won't tolerate on such an answer. Problems of communicating with each other is getting even more deficient in this cycle of life. With motivation, she can be groomed, but is blooming friendly. She doesn't want anyone to know the output of her past. She does not consider it worth mentioning to people.

"Sorry to disappoint you that much, Miss, but leaving just like that is fatal to my personality."

She bellowed as she curled her fingers against her black skirt. Luna stared at the girl through blazing blue eyes and tried to add something, but doesn't have the guts to do so. Waiving from leaving the spot, she decided to wait for the girl to throw some more words at her.

[Haleigh Fox]

No, I wasn't scared of any ghost. I don't care if any spirit or anything of that sort shows up again. In my current disposition, I could care less. I may also say that--well... I am too 'emo' to feel frightened. But I can't help it. It's what I truly feel. Anyone in my place would feel the same.

It's really painful.

...

A while ago, I was just surprised and was quite confused; because I felt HER emotions. They were mixed. They were battling within me. They were swirling and did not know where to go. For some reason, I empathized with her, especially the intensities of rage and sadness trying to dominate inside her. More or less, I could feel the same: angry and feeling sorry for myself, at the same time.

Perhaps, the thing that I must be afraid of is that 'she' could act something that would defy her limits. That so much emotions is quite unhealthy, especially for us, the living. Anytime, it may go out of control and bring mortality upon the tangible space. We may have the same feelings but it's no assurance that we have created a special bond. This girl must really leave at once. We, rather, she may be in big trouble.

"I need to be alone."

[Luna Katanashi]

"No matter what happens, I might stay here. If you know where a sharp object is located, you have to tell me."

She protested once more. Her body was such a useless material and she wants to make an unpredictable fracture of it just like her heart. Her eyes were sending radiation of tears down her cheeks, causing it to change the appearance of her facial features.

However, she has no care on such beauty. All she cares was to die. Maybe it was appropriate for her being an 'emo'.

"Well?"

She asked almost impatiently as ever. A large amount of silence meandered by as she was still waiting for further sayings. Her tears malfunctioning themselves from falling down once again.

OOC:Owze, sorry for a crappy post! X__X I am in a hurry.

[Haleigh Fox]

Sharp object?

A show of melancholy from this girl, I couldn't spell. How fast she soaked her semblance was also how fast it dried up. Not really sudden, but the moments were fleeing. It was unexplainable. I could only tell two things: either she empathizes with me or she also felt the paranormal depression present within our reach.

Whatever her reason may be, I could care less. For one, if she had my insight, I know the feeling to be meddled of such predicament--annoying, frustrating and exasperating. Or if she was unconsciously empathizing with this 'ghost', she would be logical enough to leave the 'should-not-be-touched affairs', no?

"...Nothing sharp here."

I weakly walked away.